It’s very early in the morning, nevertheless most pilgrims already left their beds. Most of them walk in search of freedom and self-connection, or simply for the experience of being ‘on the road’.
Something which I’ve done these past eight years and therefore nothing new to me. This past week, Mark and I were always the first ones to leave an albergue (a hostel for pilgrims), but today is different.
In the 200 km behind me I encountered more lessons then I had anticipated. I feel satisfied and grateful. Knowing that my budget won’t keep me going on the El Camino much longer, and seeing the landscape has become and will continue to be monotonous, I feel no need to continue.
For now that is.
I do feel an urge to one day make it by foot to Finisterre by continuing on a different road. One with other challenges, lessons and landscapes. There is no fixed destination, so I have nothing to lose. There is only the journey.
A Journey that brought me back to my home country once again for reasons such as ‘being here makes it easier to make money’ and ‘it will provide us with a better space to build up our online blog Primal Beings (stable wifi and such)’.
To be honest, it’s also the longing to a clean and comfortable bed at night. Not having to search for a place to sleep on a regular basis or even having the chance to be stuck on the streets in the cold.
The desire of a physical home. A place for ourselves where I could buy a Christmas tree in December and invite loved ones to celebrate with me instead of roaming the streets. That’s it really… I want to buy a Christmas tree and decorate it and then look at it every day and have good times with family and friends around that tree.
I’m not entirely settling down. And it’s only the question if we can get a place truly to ourselves, since we only plan to stay for about six months in the country. What? You didn’t think I was sick of traveling yet, right?
My stay here will be mainly to build up a foundation that is going to support me on more future travels. Creating focus and setting clear goals. What is it exactly that I want and how am I going to get there?